i have lost time and everything that held meaning to it.

dates, days, weeks, months have all become impossible to keep track of and so I have let go. I measure my days and nights with the sun rising and setting. with the giggling of my daughters or the birds chirping.

letting go is easy. you just flop down and say the words whateva.

if its going to take giving up, letting go, and rewinding the body clock then that’s what we will do and we will wait.

Not the agonizing wait where you cringe and recoil because everything around you has changed.

it is the letting go where you leave the shadow behind and walk on… without judging the moment, without turning around to look one last time. looking ahead is not easy at this time but it is the one choice we have over falling into that mindless pit of whys.