*I reach inside.. wrench it out and lay my heart at Your feet.. I do it for love..

* with doubt I have tasted Your certainty
with awe Your Presence

* I am learning to walk with grace

*it’s a familiar gait
as if I learnt it before this Time

* the secret is what is there; only the Sun blinds my Vision
I with my lackings

*has this been a longer day than this night that lies ahead

* befriending darkness

*I remain frozen
lest You leave
I move not a muscle

*the words were learnt.

*now I must relearn the Silence

* doubt entered
while You watched
waited
knowing

*I forgot to whisper
and now my screams are gnawing at my being

* there is nothing ill not do for one moment of certainty filled with You

*teach me to trust darkness so I may see You

*it’s not always about You

*it’s never anything but You

*the moment when I smile with pride is the moment You leave

* my vanity will lose You

*my vanity will Lose You

* my wanting will lose You

*my desire will lose You

*my.
me.
i
and just
You

* I let the day savagely use me so I may be salvaged at night

* don’t test me
I will fail

*exhausted
I want to rest for a moment on Your shadow..

*and You shift away.. am I asking for too much if for Your Shadow?

*You smile..
ask for not the shadow when You have Me here.You reply.

*night after night I fail to see You..
me .
my.
I. come in the way.

*useless meaningful aimless profound
I

*this trembling is not familiar.. trust Me.. You whisper..

*if its the same moment each night then it’s my delusion.

* I doubt.

*I look at the wise expanse and the ones who love You far better than I do. And I doubt that You would come hither to my lesser I

*I feel fear in Your presence. that’s not love?

*if I cease to be.. will I find You

*will You wait till I shed my doubt

*this moment is crowded with too much of I

*now look at what I have gone and done.. Locked the window from whence You entered.

*ill do anything to make You stay.
but you don’t have to, You reply with a smile

*ill do anything to make this perfect.. but You don’t have to..You reply with a smile

*everyone is resounding me resounding You resounding us resounding me resounding You resounding us

*the man crossing the road said Your name.. I felt Possessive.. and You left

*the rain spoilt my clothes.. You left

*the food was not hot enough.. You left

*the day was not cool enough.. You left

*if I keep finding faults in everything.. will You leave forever?

*and will You leave if I looked elsewhere.. ill still be here , You reply..

*I reach inside.. wrench it out and lay my heart at Your feet.. I do it for love..

*but love does not ask for your heart You say
it asks for your soul

* drenched in my blood I will lay down to rest now.. love knows not rest You whisper

*then ill lay down to wait for dawn?
it’s not your choice anymore You whisper gently

*then ill just close my eyes.. they hurt .. that’s not yours to decide either.. You smile

*then ill just close my eyes.. they hurt .. that’s not yours to decide either.. You smile

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